I never get what I go out for

Its always happened to me. Innumerable times. I go for something else, and I get something else. Sometimes I end up regretting my decisions, and sometimes its pure serendipity.

So, I am trying to furnish my room - and I need a TV stand. After doing some research, I go to IKEA which is 20 miles away. But I did not really like any of the TV stands that they had. So, I am looking around trying to find an excuse for not going back empty handed - and I see the 6 shelf Expedit bookcase.
Now I need a bookcase too, so I go over to it and in the notes by the product, they say we can put the shelf horizontally as well as vertically... and bazinga.... pure epiphany strikes me.

I can put my TV on this shelf if I put it horizontally ! There is my TV stand. I am so smart (Those are the exact words that I thought to myself. Seriously). Now I have the bookshelf, I wonder if it will hold my 37" TV ...

Ah well, I am gonna use it as a TV stand and we will see how it goes. I might need to change my opinion about myself, but I don't care :)


Also, need to assemble it tonight - won't get time next week, as I am off to LA for an official trip...

what does one do ...

... with REALLY hard green peas. I found them in the grocery bag because my room-mate once put them there... I have no clue how or why those peas are so hard... Tried boiling them - no dice :(
What do i do with them?

need to use the full powers of my imagination ... !

I really need some ...

... luck. Going to vegas baby :)

Hopefully I don't bring anything back from vegas other than fond memories and more money than I left with !!

Sometimes I think

that I must have harmed a lot of people. Inadvertently, though.

Why?

Because the good lord gave me a good heart but not much else...

It's good to know...

that what I have felt has been captured in words. Someone else has felt this too.

Adele- Somone Like You 

 I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and your married now
I heard that your dreams came true
Guess she gave you things, I didn't give to you

Old friend
Why are you so shy
It ain't like you to hold back
Or hide from the lie

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it
I hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me, it isn't over

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah

You'd know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised in a summery haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it
I hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me, it isn't over yet

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg, I remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah

Nothing compares, no worries or cares
Regret's and mistakes they're memories made
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg, I remembered you said
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg, I remembered you said
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah, yeah

Is it the full moon yet?

After a long while, I got some time last night when I did not have much work from office. So I looked at the moon; it was beautiful. There are things that come to your mind when you see something beautiful like that. New ideas germinate. Beauty is indeed a gift from the gods.

It also reminded me of those words - "When you remember me, look at the moon - and I will look at it too, and we will know we are both close to each other". And in the blink of an eye we were 4000 miles apart...

I had not looked at the moon in a while. It's beautiful.

I don't have a writers' block

What I have are timing issues. While doing the most mundane things, my mind keeps going back to the the events of my life. All the moments when I have been happy. And all the (many more) moments when I have been sad. And I think of all the things that I would write, if I had a pen paper at that moment.


But then life catches up and I focus back to the job at hand. And all those beautiful things vanish from the mind. So I don't have a writer's block. I have timing issues.


Take for instance, the events in Norway from a month or two ago. I wonder what Anders is thinking about right now. I have had time to analyse it and there are so many (questions and answers) that came to mind. Perhaps I should write about it someday. But the sea of political correctness and liberalism is nauseating. Being an immigrant, it might even be detrimental.


Do you think Anders knows that there are people out there who understand his point of view? Even if they may not agree with the actions he took. His must be a loneliness. I can connect with that...

This week ...

... I broke the 6-figure mark. But I have paid a very high-price ...

current affairs

There is this emptiness within me, even though things are going great. I got great colleagues. A great career. I have been promoted and I am on the verge of buying a new condo.

Then I see all these happy people around me, and they make me angry.

God, its good that no-one reads this blog. It would be a positively life-sucking experience to read this every day :)

Anyways, here is to those who have a need to be happy...

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

The Prince and the Orc

And the Orc must kill the prince. Because all Prince trample Orcs...

I met an old friend yesterday

That friend is a feeling.

The feeling of being sucker punched in the pit of your stomach. So hard that the esophagus cannot react. You are left with an open mouth, stooping, though staggered a bit, but still standing somehow. Gasping for breath.

Having met this friend several times in the past, I thought I could handle it. God has his plans for me. He keeps me running into my friend just as I begin to forget him.

Finding a home

So, I am beginning my search for home. Today was the first day that I actually went to see a property. This was my first physical movement towards that goal.

And the showing agent could not get the electronic code for the condo to work !!

Nice start...