This week ...

... I broke the 6-figure mark. But I have paid a very high-price ...

current affairs

There is this emptiness within me, even though things are going great. I got great colleagues. A great career. I have been promoted and I am on the verge of buying a new condo.

Then I see all these happy people around me, and they make me angry.

God, its good that no-one reads this blog. It would be a positively life-sucking experience to read this every day :)

Anyways, here is to those who have a need to be happy...

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

The Prince and the Orc

And the Orc must kill the prince. Because all Prince trample Orcs...

I met an old friend yesterday

That friend is a feeling.

The feeling of being sucker punched in the pit of your stomach. So hard that the esophagus cannot react. You are left with an open mouth, stooping, though staggered a bit, but still standing somehow. Gasping for breath.

Having met this friend several times in the past, I thought I could handle it. God has his plans for me. He keeps me running into my friend just as I begin to forget him.